I have never felt so overwhelmed. I try really hard to do the things I used to do and I land on my face. Even reading has become a trial. Three pages makes then more eye drops. I am the only person I know who can cry without tears. I am going to the ASPA’s national conventions thank you to those who made that happen. WOW! So I am intimidated but hope to find someone who understands what I am feeling.
I am not afraid to be real anymore. My right arm feels like it is trying to wake up that painful I slept with it wrong two days now. My shortness of breath, or as the nurse put it limited lung function has me on albuterol treatments twice a day and then making an appointment with a Pulmenoligist. Yeah a new doctor…. sarcasm is not my strong suit. Its been 10 months. I am not chipper any more and I am yeah angry and really frustrated when people don’t get this isn’t something I am just holding off and not doing. The -“Their has to be somethings” people in the world. I love them but – what am I to say – the best doctor Emory has said go home and wait it will get worse before it gets better. I have fire and electric shocks.
Okay remember I told you about my lower back we have been ignoring it – It said Hi after the two falls a day issue. I have two wonderful ladies that come and help me with me and with the hose including the kids – another amazing gift. I know GOd has a gift for me too, and if I would stop venting and be quiet I just might hear it. I am back and I will be THe regular Jenn going forward but the beast inside one today.
Oh and one other thing – there are a hand full of you that have done amazing things, a 31 catalog show were I received the proceeds, A LOVE4DOVE Tennis tournament that not only had registration funds but a place to contribute, people have sent us money. We have been working hard with the thank you cards – we have no excuse but they will show up one day
Love you guys – Thanks for hanging with me!!